The Fallout

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The Fallout

There is always a fallout from closing the door on a narcissist, but at this point, I expect it. It comes with the territory. The only thing about that is, I now know that the fallout does not necessarily come from the narcissist at first. It can come from other narcissists or the flying monkeys of the narcissist. In my case, it occurred by another narcissist in my life that has been somewhat silent up until just recently.

Out of nowhere, this silent narcissist came at me with a rage so strong that I did not see it coming (even though I saw his anger). I knew this narcissist was angry, but I did not perceive his anger to be directed towards me. Instead, I figured he was angry about his current life circumstances. Yet, the force of his rage was clearly directed towards me, and it appeared that even though his anger seem misdirected towards me, his anger was loud and clear against me.

There were no mean words exchanged, but his energy was forcefully off with me. With my high sensitivity, I immediately picked up on his negative energy and returned to my home and cried hysterically. I knew right away that there had been a transference of his dark energy to me. For at least 10 minutes, I cried uncontrollably. I felt a mixture of his emotions that overwhelmed my own emotions. I clasped my hands over my heart for fear I had no strength to contain it all. It was like hovering over a combustion of dynamite. That is the only way that I know to describe it.

In times past, I have experienced transferences such as this on numerous occasions from narcissists. Sometimes their anger is misdirected towards me. I automatically know it, but most often, they are actually angry with me but fighting hard not to let me see their anger manifest. Yet, I am intuitive, and it is something I just know. I discern the emotions even before I feel them. I just know.

Even when I do not feel the emotions of narcissists in the given moment, I always walk away with them. I feel the intensity of narcissists’ emotions later, and I wrestle with them. I literally wallow in them to understand them. Let me say that their emotions are intense. I do not understand their emotions, and I do not understand why they walk around with such intense emotions against others. Narcissists seem to carry around within them silent rages of storms waiting to be unleashed upon whoever is so fortunate to receive them. Their rages have been bottled up until they can no longer contain them. So when they release them, I feel them. When I feel them, I have no choice but to release them too. I do not hold their emotions because the weight or narcissists’ emotions is far too heavy a burden for me to carry.

Needless to say, the fallout of narcissists is great. So I will keep you posted on the fallout that occurs from my going no-contact with The Identity Thief.