I cannot say that all narcissists have evil intentions, but the narcissists I personally knew all had evil intentions towards me. In fact, they had evil intentions towards just about anyone with whom they could not control, manipulate and reimage themselves into becoming so that they could destroy lives.
One might wonder how I even know I was dealing with actual narcissists. All I can say is that once you’ve dealt with a narcissist, you know when you’ve dealt with one. The signs are always there, and the experiences you have with just one narcissist will be unforgettably stamped within your memory for life. When you encounter anyone else with narcissistic traits, a radar goes off to pay attention.
The narcissists I knew had evil intent. They pondered evil all day long, and I am not exaggerating. They schemed how to take down someone else because of their struggles with envy and jealousy. They behaved wickedly for the purpose of trying maintain control over my life and the lives of others around them. If they couldn’t have their way, then they were adamant about bringing destruction my way.
There was never pleasing or appeasing any narcissist I knew. I would try, but I would always be met with their disproval and condescendence. Reflectively, I don’t even know why I bothered to even try getting anywhere with any narcissist on a reasonable level because there was no reasoning with them.
The narcissists I knew behaved as if they were beyond reproach and acted as if they could do no wrong. I was the one who was always made wrong in their eyes. In fact, I always ended up apologizing for the hurts they caused me. Interesting how that all worked out. They never said they were sorry for anything, and if they did, if was an apology about my reactions or my behaviors. (“I’m sorry you overreacted or felt some type of way.”_
No matter how I attempted to maintain peaceful relationships with any narcissist, I never could obtain peace. A narcissist found peace intolerable. They were all about drama. They were all about wreaking nonstop chaos and havoc within my life. They didn’t care about the problems they caused me. They all actually reveled in seeing me struggle, and they continued to take and take and take and take until I was absolutely too drained to give anymore.
Once I established boundaries and stood by them, a narcissist would buck against me and become even that much more headstrong against me. All the while, they’d label me as the obstinate one – the one always causing trouble. They took blame for nothing they did even though they were not guiltless – not without fault. Yet, the more they attempted to get me to break, the more steadfast I became in gaining my freedom and peace away from them.
Whose heart devises wicked plans against someone they claim to love? All the narcissists I knew were set on someone else’s destruction even when their own lives were crumbling all around them. They’d spend all their time digging a ditch for someone else to fall into even if it meant they’d be falling into that ditch too. They only pretended to be supportive, but in secret, they were gnashing their teeth and plotting someone’s destruction.
It was incredulous to me how avid those narcissists were to destroy someone just because they could even without solid reasons. All they needed was the hatred they had in their hearts for anyone who didn’t bow to them. Anyone who was their own person and not attempting to be anyone who they were but themselves were always targeted by the narcissists I knew, and it took me a while before I figured out that just because they were pretending to be close to me didn’t mean that I wasn’t their target.
Truth be told, the closer a narcissist seems to be to someone, the greater chances are that this person within their proximity is their main target for destruction. Many people don’t believe that a narcissist could have evil intentions. Instead, bad behaviors are blamed on the personality disorder, NPD, but I am here to say that there is a lot more than just a personality going on with a narcissist.
I can’t say all narcissists have evil intentions, but I can certainly clarify that the narcissists I knew all had evil intentions. They thrived on evil. They set their clocks by it, and if I stood in the way of their agendas to commit their evils, I didn’t have to wait long for them to come after me with some type of revenge. A narcissist that has evil intentions will always use those intentions against you.
My Voice Unchained 