The home was dimly lit, but I recognized that it was my place. As I stepped outside for some fresh air, I was immediately met by a sea of thickly designed cobwebs when I opened the front door. The webbing was so thick, my mind instantaneously captured an onslaught of thoughts that materialized as emotions. Mostly, there was concern but very little fear.
Normally, the sight of cobwebs would ignite fear within me because I do not like spiders. Yet, the only feeling I could muster up was trepidation. Overall, I felt trapped in and wondered how on earth an insect so tiny could create such intricate but thick webbing. I was certain the webbing was created by more than just one spider.
In fact, the webbing was so thick that I not only felt entrapped and webbed in, I also felt suffocated as I needed to catch my breath to breathe normally. I felt there was no way of getting any fresh air unless I returned back inside of the house. So I backed my way into the house and quickly shut the door. Outside of the home, I wouldn’t be able to leave to go anywhere because of those thick cobwebs.
Unfortunately, the force of shutting the door allowed some of the webbing to be pushed inside of the house. Inadvertently, I coughed, feeling as if some of the webbing had been caught into my throat. I also found myself backing away and flailing my arms to get some of the sticky substance of cobwebs off of me. Overall, I felt attacked, and I didn’t know what to do.
As soon as I fell backwards, I instantly woke up. Thankfully, it was all a dream … but worse, it was a nightmare. As I gathered myself and refocused my eyes to look around my bedroom, I heard the words “webbed in” almost as instantly as I felt that I had escaped from being entrapped and webbed in by cobwebs within my dream. It was just 15 minutes shy of 2 AM, and although I had a tendency to keep pen and paper by my bed for the purpose of recording such dreams, I knew this was a dream I wasn’t going to soon forget.
Although I was too fatigued to ponder over the contents of the dream, I took some time to read over different dream interpretation meanings as well as watch a few videos on the topic. I clearly didn’t need an interpretation. I already knew the dream’s significance. The dream was mainly tied to my professional work life, although, there are areas within my personal life that leave me feeling trapped too. However, the main focus of issues within my life right now pertains to work.
I am constantly questioning the reasons I am still surrounded by a lot of narcissistic individuals in my waking life, and the bulk of those narcissistic individuals surround me at work. Although I felt entrapped by the darkness and cobwebs of some unseen force within the dream, there is both a visible and invisible source of my woes within my everyday work life.
Daily, I question what and whom I’m dealing with in terms of people and issues, but I also question my own motives and actions and their effects upon my worklife. I feel as if I’m webbed in by my own making as much as I’m webbed in by both visible and invisible energy. There are only certain days at work when I seem to have peace, but even that peace fades depending on the energetic field within the workplace.
I always feel separated from supportive people within the workspace, but then again, everyone I seem to work with is either too immature to comprehend what’s going on, too preoccupied to care about what’s going on, or too focused on actually working because they may have found a solution to simply deal with what’s going on. I don’t really know for sure, but what I do know is that there are times it seems that I’m purposefully kept away from more positive behaving coworkers and placed to work with those who’d rather dwell on being negative.
Either way, I feel as if I stand alone and have no one to vent my frustrations to regarding the work atmosphere. To be frank, I feel like I can’t win and want to give up, and that’s how the cobwebs in the dream left me feeling. It was like there’s no reason to bother with anything if I’m webbed in. I should just let the cobwebs overtake me. It was hard enough trying to see through them. Why would I want to walk through them? Essentially, I’m just trapped, but that is not where I want to be. So how do I get out of those cobwebs?
My Voice Unchained 